“Hello, It’s Me” – My E.Life after Post 1

(Oh, here’s that Post #1, by the way, to jog your memory.)

Oddly, my reason for writing after such a long gap is prompted by a bad note. Literally (sigh). For that to make sense, you have to read that part in my Post #1 about how someone’s crappy comment on my work became the impetus to my re-entering the IT world and learning anew. However, let me start with the bad part just to get it over with.

I ended up doing the same thing to someone (sigh). Was I happy about it, of course not.  There’s a part of me that loves to depict me as the sort of person who   just doesn’t care, but heck, I admit now  it’s not always true.  I do realize now that there are moments when I do speak my mind – and it’s to those who I feel can do more and be more than who they were at the time, but are stuck. That’s because I also went through and still go through insecure and unconfident times when I question my abilities, and wished someone would care enough to kick my behind when I do that.

Amusingly, though, today, I also realized an amazing thing. If you know you can do something because it’s already inherent in you, why then would I need to say, ‘Ah, I don’t think I can do it and I give up?’ Pretty logical eh. So I guess it could mean a few things. One, maybe I’m just lazy. Meep. Two, I’m being impeded by outside forces beyond my control. But that’s subject to contention, though. If it’s inherent in me, I probably can control it in some way.

Anyway, then, what’s the good part?

The web 2.0 I aimed for? I got there. In fact, I’m already  on Web 3.0 and progressing. I started from zero, and now, I not only know HTML5 and CSS3, I’m studying Jquery. One of my goals is to get into Ruby in the near future. I used to helplessly just watch programmers, drooling, and shrugging enviously – and now I discover than I can actually code like one. Sure, I have a long way to go.

But thank you, Nameless Disagreeable Dude, I shall never cease to thank you for your good taste (haha) and rejecting my ugly work. One of these days, I know I can surpass the website you deemed acceptable, but more than that, I know I will be working not only because of envy, but this time, for the sake of genuinely loving it.

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Stuck x Block (+ E-bservations) = goodPost

Observation #1. I find it funny how my blog name ends up being associated with masonry, e.g., freemasonry, of which my theme is anything but. I don’t mind, though, if my e-words get all bound up by e-mortar (snigger).

Observation #2: I find it awesome as well that there is a JS grid layout library called Masonry. Cool. Would be nice to try and use that sometime in the future, as namesake.

This is actually meant to be a placeholder post of sorts – it makes me flip my lip whenever I see how much time has trickled by without me updating at least a bit. The truth is this (takes deep breath). After some months of feverish data gobbling and key tackling, I found myself, well, stuck. Everyone’s favorite work word.

In the old days, the ‘stuck’ thing used to terrify me. I thought I was unique in my suckiness. Not until my net reach got wider and learned to my relief that I’m not alone. It’s the kind of ‘stuck’ any creative or techie goes through every now and then when things just don’t work out the way you want them to.

So, as is my wont to be appreciative of those who value hard work and generosity, I appreciate those who write articles that address these issues, and do so in a real-world-setting way.

My Rebuttal To “Why Learning To Code Is So Darn Hard” – {by Jose Kemp}

How To Survive The Desert of Despair in Your Code-Learning Journey – {by Roberto Rocha}

I noticed that what they say about setting goals is indeed true, and I discovered that it was my problem as well, but that it wasn’t insurmountable (nor unusual). I got so caught up wanting to learn everything at once, so it’s a swift kick-in-the-posterior for me to start streamlining my vision, so to speak.

After all, no one who’s an expert today started out that way. They all began as newbies, too. It’s a path we all take. They say there’s a huge need for people in IT now and in the near future. Here’s hoping by then to be at least one of them.

Strange Things Do Happen

Been just mucking around (flipping my lip) for the past couple of months since I decided (see 1st post) to do some serious study. #confessiontime. Something strange happened, though. Give take 2-3 weeks ago, I found a coding course which I never expected to finish at all.

I ended up, not only finishing it in record time – a week, I think – but the knowledge base got me started on my own other projects. New or old needing upgrading. Wha. What happened to me.

Although I wrote this post for documentation purposes, deep down, I want to remember how it got to me emotionally as well (sniff#sob). I think I’m getting past the funk I was in earlier and am grateful.

Web 1.0, The Class Acts

I can’t believe they’re still around, these sort of sites I was looking Gott Gaussfor. Illustration and animation were some of the interests I had early on, sometime before the Millennium Bug hit (or didn’t) and this was one of those really good looking ones that persuaded me to take up coding again. Checking what’s under the hood, I noticed the tables. Ah, tables. That really had me in a migraine back then. I remember how ‘proud’ I’d been when I finally was able to make a site with tables.

Anyway, it’s real nice to reminisce the old days when I’d envy these class acts – as opposed to the flashy web10animated gif’d sites that induced a really bad case of the OCD, ahaha. There’s AOL in there, I see, ahaha. As well as that world famous yellow “Under Construction” icon that many a tutorial begged you to stay away from like the plague.