“Hello, It’s Me” – My E.Life after Post 1

(Oh, here’s that Post #1, by the way, to jog your memory.)

Oddly, my reason for writing after such a long gap is prompted by a bad note. Literally (sigh). For that to make sense, you have to read that part in my Post #1 about how someone’s crappy comment on my work became the impetus to my re-entering the IT world and learning anew. However, let me start with the bad part just to get it over with.

I ended up doing the same thing to someone (sigh). Was I happy about it, of course not.  There’s a part of me that loves to depict me as the sort of person who   just doesn’t care, but heck, I admit now  it’s not always true.  I do realize now that there are moments when I do speak my mind – and it’s to those who I feel can do more and be more than who they were at the time, but are stuck. That’s because I also went through and still go through insecure and unconfident times when I question my abilities, and wished someone would care enough to kick my behind when I do that.

Amusingly, though, today, I also realized an amazing thing. If you know you can do something because it’s already inherent in you, why then would I need to say, ‘Ah, I don’t think I can do it and I give up?’ Pretty logical eh. So I guess it could mean a few things. One, maybe I’m just lazy. Meep. Two, I’m being impeded by outside forces beyond my control. But that’s subject to contention, though. If it’s inherent in me, I probably can control it in some way.

Anyway, then, what’s the good part?

The web 2.0 I aimed for? I got there. In fact, I’m already  on Web 3.0 and progressing. I started from zero, and now, I not only know HTML5 and CSS3, I’m studying Jquery. One of my goals is to get into Ruby in the near future. I used to helplessly just watch programmers, drooling, and shrugging enviously – and now I discover than I can actually code like one. Sure, I have a long way to go.

But thank you, Nameless Disagreeable Dude, I shall never cease to thank you for your good taste (haha) and rejecting my ugly work. One of these days, I know I can surpass the website you deemed acceptable, but more than that, I know I will be working not only because of envy, but this time, for the sake of genuinely loving it.

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E-Life 1.0, and Onto 2.0

It all started with “I don’t like it” and I cried. Okay, I just a shed a tear. Or two. Hey, web design isn’t easy, you know.

I lived a life during Web 1.0. “Oh, so that’s what it’s called.” I didn’t even know that was the name for it, to be honest, until today when I did some research. (You can shimmy on down to this Web 2.0 Wikipedia entry and read the Web 1.0 part to get a better handle of what I’m talking about). After tiring of chats, I had one other preoccupation – I envied many a friend’s website secretly.

You’d be surprised that the sheer creativity of these guys. All that image slicing and html’ing. I marveled at how they were able to stretch and explore possibilities from such limited resources. I praised and complimented until I could take it no more and asked one of those friends, “how the heck do you do it?” To my surprise, she smiled and said, “I’ll teach you.” That, my friends, began my wild and wondrous adventure into the world of website design and development.

Unfortunately, I was pretty lazy. Lazy and coding don’t mix. After 20 years (has it been really that long), it’s only now I realized how much I missed a lot of things (sigh). One of which was, I wish I had the patience back then. I could’ve had something done then by now. To make a long story short, it was that nostalgia that made me long to begin again. We can never turn back time, I’m aware. I think it’s not too late, though, is it?

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